Neck hugs and butterfly kisses.

So Devyn runs up and jumps in my lap and gives me a hug around the neck, neck hugs are my all time favorite. They just make you feel so loved and warm and fuzzy. ;) A thought hits me; I just turned 29 and right around the corner all 3 of my kids will be celebrating birthdays soon. Jace will be 9, EJ: 5 and Devyn: 3. Where has time gone and why does it keep moving so quickly. It makes me sad and happy all at the same time. Sad that one day my kids will be to old for neck hugs and butterfly kisses but I also love watching them grow but if you would have told me 11 years ago that I would have 2 handsome boys that light up my life and a beautiful little girl who would be my best friend, I probably would have laughed. It is amazing how your life can turn out completely different from what you may have imagined when you were 18 yrs. old.

 My life is way better then I could ever imagined  at 18 I was a selfish teenager. I thought marriage was a joke and kids were not something I wanted but I became pregnant at 19 and my world turned upside down but I would do it all over again just to make sure I got my Jace. I feel so blessed to be married to my husband and that I met him young and didn't have to wait forever to meet my ever after. Our children are my whole world and I can't imagine a life with out them. Yes, I get stressed and they can all drive me a little crazy sometimes but I will take all the craziness and more to have them in my life. Not sure why this has all come rushing forward, it could be the timing or that amazing neck hug I just got but either way it is a good thing. It reminds me to slow down and enjoy the small beautiful moments with my kids because one day they wont be so open and innocent. To take a deep breath when I'm becoming frustrated and talk kindly to them and also listen to what they have to say, they may be kids but their voices deserve to be heard. My goals have changed constantly through my life but the  goals that are on the top of my list and will always be, are to be the best mom and wife I can be and for my kids to feel that I am the best Mom. Jace always tells me I'm the best mom and every time he says it, it makes me feel so great, it reminds me that I may not always feel like the best mom but him saying it makes me feel like I'm accomplishing my goals.

I don't think I ever really understood unconditional love until the day John placed our first born in my arms, no words can describe the feelings that come when you hold your child for the first time and I was lucky enough to experience those wonderful feelings three times.